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  But with Arden relaxing, his weight rested more fully into her, and Keera was very aware he was lying on top of her, in the middle of the morning in a parking lot where her neighbors could clearly see them if they so much as looked out their windows, let alone walked outside.

  Keera was new to this town, and she really didn’t want to get the kind of reputation she’d get if anyone found her in such a compromising situation with one of the Forbes men.

  She meant to push Arden away, but every point where their bodies touched, the most pleasurable burn was happening, and it made it nearly impossible to want him to move, even knowing her reputation was on the line.

  “I think we’re safe now,” she said, her voice too husky.

  His eyes burned into hers as he shifted, slowly enough for her to feel the impact of their bodies being thrown together, his hardness pressing into her thigh. She was disappointed when he pushed himself to his knees, then stood and reached out to help her to her feet.

  Her lips were tingling, and she was more than aware that she wouldn’t have fought him had he leaned down and kissed her. She’d forgotten how beautiful it was to have another person’s mouth against hers until she’d kissed him.

  “I guess we’re both a little jumpy,” she told him, trying to cover up her nervousness. “I’m hoping the neighbors didn’t see that.”

  “Sorry. I hope I didn’t hurt you,” he said as he reached across the short distance between them and ran his hands over her arms, causing her skin to burn.

  She pulled back, not needing him to realize the power he held over her. She blamed it on the fact that she was lonelier than she’d realized. She could almost convince herself she wasn’t so attracted to him, that she was just hungry for any human’s touch. But even as she thought it, she knew there had been opportunities before, but none of them had tempted her like Arden could.

  He captured her gaze again, his eyes burning against her skin as he looked her over. “I can’t let anything happen to you,” he said, stepping a bit closer and placing his hand against her shoulder.

  She shuddered as she looked at his mouth, her own lips parched. Even gazing at this man heated her body to inferno temperatures. He was so much more dangerous than she’d first thought.

  “I’m fine. I’m sure what’s been happening at the school has nothing to do with me as a person,” she said.

  “We can agree to disagree about that,” Arden told her.

  She knew she wasn’t going to win an argument with the man, so she decided it was best to call it a loss and escape as quickly as possible. But with her emotions aflutter, she couldn’t even remember what it was she’d been planning before Arden had shown up.

  “I better get going,” she told him, trying to make herself step away.

  “Yes, let’s get out of here,” he said, opening his passenger door.

  She crossed her arms over her chest, hating that her heart was still beating out of control. She tried to give him her sternest look.

  “I don’t remember saying I’d go anywhere with you.” Her voice was a bit firmer. When he looked at her, his lips turning up in the most beautiful smile, she knew she was sunk. This man most certainly had a way of getting what he wanted—and apparently what he wanted right now was her.

  Chapter Seventeen

  Keera sat with Arden at a picnic table in the park, people milling about them, some playing Frisbee, kids laughing in the playground, teenagers making out behind trees. It was a beautiful, sunny afternoon, and she was enjoying herself. And that was the problem.

  Somehow the man had managed to not only change her mind about going out with him for the day, but she was enjoying herself as they spent time together. Being with Arden was becoming an obsession, and most likely it was too late for her to stop it.

  It had been so long since she’d even had a friendship that she felt lost in this town where everyone knew their neighbors, and felt even more lost with this handsome man who had made it his mission to save her. How was she supposed to turn him down, though, when he wasn’t a man who accepted defeat?

  If Arden weren’t so sweet, such a Prince Charming, out to save the kids, the community, and her, then this would be a different story. But he was that one-in-a-million guy who people talked about. He was that person romance authors wrote books about. He was damn near irresistible, even to a stronger woman than she considered herself.

  A breeze blew past them, carrying Arden’s scent to her, making her close her eyes and for just a moment imagine she was just a normal woman, out with an ordinary man, and everything would be fine. There was no evil in the world, and past trauma didn’t exist.

  For just a blessed, beautiful few seconds, she felt the weight of her sorrows lift, float away in the breeze, and she felt true joy.

  Arden looked up, catching her gaze, smiling. She noticed that he was very aware of who was around them, of any possible areas where someone could sneak up from, but he didn’t allow that to overrun him. He still knew how to relax, knew how to keep her calm. He knew how to have fun.

  “Keera,” Arden said, snapping Keera out of her thoughts as she focused on him.

  “Yes?” She couldn’t remember what they’d been talking about that had sent her into her own head.

  “You were telling me about your family,” he reminded her.

  Ah, yes, of course he wanted to know what kind of people she came from. That’s why she’d mentally retreated. Maybe there was a part of her that wanted to tell him exactly who she was because she knew he’d find out and run far and fast from her. But there was another part—an even bigger part, it seemed—that wanted to keep him in the dark.

  “I’d rather hear more about yours,” she said, forcing a laugh that sounded fake even to her own ears.

  “I’ve told you about Kian, Owen, Dakota, and you’ve met Declan. You have to meet my parents to truly appreciate them,” he said. “Plus, with the way the school gossip channels run, I’m sure you know enough about my family to write a thesis on us,” he added with a laugh. “Quit hedging unless you want to be at this park until midnight.”

  She had no doubt he’d stay true to his word and not let her get away until she gave him something. The thing was, she was finding she wanted to share a piece of her past with him, wanted to let out some of these emotions that seemed to be drowning her lately.

  “My dad isn’t a good man,” she began. She was almost shocked when she said those six little words. If Arden had reacted with disgust or there was judgment in his eyes, maybe she wouldn’t have been able to continue, but he sat back and waited.

  “Do you see him much?” he asked.

  “No, I haven’t seen him in years,” she admitted.

  “Is that his choice or yours?”

  She hesitated, thinking about it for a while. “When I was younger, he got in a lot of trouble.” She was surprised to find she was giving Arden this much information. Now that he had her name and knew her father was a criminal, it wouldn’t take much for him to put all the pieces together. It didn’t normally take people long. She’d thought about changing her name, but what good would that do? If someone wanted information, they were going to find it.

  “So he got in trouble, and then he left?” Arden asked. He seemed more horrified by this fact than anything else. Maybe it was because Arden was the type of guy who could never walk away from his family. There were men out there who didn’t. Logically she knew this even if emotionally she didn’t believe it.

  “Yes, he ran,” she admitted. “But he did call once out of the blue a couple years later. It wasn’t because he missed me. It was because he wanted something.”

  “What could he possibly think he’d get from you after leaving you at such a tender age?” Arden asked, showing his open disgust.

  “What it was doesn’t matter. I had changed a lot already at that point. My mother was useless, so drugged out she didn’t even know if it was night or day, and I was determined to live somewhat normally. For a while I tried keeping
things together, but eventually I couldn’t handle it anymore, and I left, too.”

  “How old were you?” Arden asked.

  “When I left home?” she clarified.

  “Yes,” he answered. She could see how desperately he was trying to keep his tone neutral. She could also see he was horrified on her behalf. She saw that reaction a lot, actually, but after it all sank in, most people would shy away from her. Once they knew she was the daughter of an infamous drug lord, they didn’t come back. “He’s had several new families since then, new identities,” she said matter-of-factly.

  “Who is he?” Arden asked.

  “It really doesn’t matter. He moved on with his life, and I’ve moved on with mine.”

  “You’re taking this a lot better than most would,” Arden said. He reached for her, but she was too vulnerable to be touched by him right now, when sharing this particular story. Arden was too much of an upstanding citizen to date someone like her, to even be friends with her.

  “He was busted with so much cocaine, he could’ve supplied a small country. They thought I was involved with it. I was fifteen at the time. I was seventeen when I ran away from home.”

  “Keera . . . ,” he began. She didn’t want his sympathy. For some reason that would hurt her more than if he told her she was worthless. Maybe it was because she wasn’t a victim anymore, and maybe it was because she thought of herself as stronger than she actually was. Whatever it was, she just needed to not have Arden look at her differently. She’d rather he permanently removed himself from her life than look at her like she was nothing more than a white-trash druggie who had no right to be influencing the children of his town.

  “I grew up in a world of wealth and privilege. Neither of my parents gave a crap about my brother or me. Holidays were spent apart, summers apart. We never had a nanny too long, so no relationships were forged with anyone, but I didn’t know any of that was wrong. I had all of the best clothes, the newest gadgets, anything I could ever want,” she said, trying to make it sound like that had been great.

  “And you were utterly alone,” Arden said, not as a question. He was the first one to come to that conclusion. She hadn’t told too many people this story, but the ones who did know thought she was bragging or this was a golden time in her life. They had no idea how wrong they were.

  “Both of my parents had affairs all the time. They never tried to hide it. When my father got busted, he ran, but he was never alone. My mother wasn’t sad to lose him; she was terrified of losing her lifestyle. But we all did. The government seized everything, right down to my Rolex watch and Gucci boots,” she said with a bitter laugh. She hadn’t cared about the material things, but she had cared that they’d gone from at least having food on the table to literally barely having a ramshackle roof over their heads and sharing the floor with mice.

  “How did you make it to college?” he asked.

  Here again was another question she was never asked.

  She smiled, this time allowing him to take her hand. She knew it was dangerous to do, but she was beginning to trust this man.

  “I was a good student, a really good student, so I got scholarships, and I have a lot of student loans,” she said. Now she was afraid he’d think she was after him for his money. Nothing she could say here was helping her feel better about herself.

  “Not many would rise above. I’m impressed,” he told her. She so desperately wanted to trust him.

  “It is what it is,” she said with a shrug.

  She hadn’t told him who her father was, but a few key words on the computer and he’d know. Maybe it was better this was out in the open. If she was going to get fired from her job, she’d rather have it happen now, before she was too attached to this town, too attached to Arden. She feared it might already be too late for that, but she’d prefer that it happened sooner rather than later.

  Keera stopped speaking and waited for Arden to comment on what he’d just learned. She was, on the one hand, afraid of the goodbye, and on the other, it felt as if a weight had been lifted.

  Though the waiting was only taking seconds, it felt like a lifetime. Keera was afraid to look up, afraid to see disgust in his eyes. Everything within her was screaming for her to stand up, to leave this park, to leave this town. But Keera wasn’t that seventeen-year-old scared girl anymore. She refused to run. She might start over, but she wouldn’t cower. That’s what her father had done, and that’s what her brother had done.

  “Keera,” he said softly. She didn’t meet his gaze. “Please look at me,” he said, his tone not changing. She’d appear a coward if she didn’t do what he’d asked, so with great effort she squared her shoulders and looked up, making sure to meet his gaze, defiance in her own. All she saw in his eyes was kindness.

  “You live here now, and you’re no longer alone,” he said, shocking her.

  “Arden . . . ,” she began. She didn’t know what she really wanted to say, but it was most likely a warning that it was in his best interest to stay far away from her.

  “I don’t say things I don’t mean. You’ll never be alone again,” he told her, conviction ringing in his tone, making her almost believe what he was saying.

  “I prefer to be alone,” she said. At one time she’d actually meant that. “It’s less complicated.”

  He squeezed her hand, and Keera realized she wasn’t interested in letting him go at this moment.

  “That’s what we say to ourselves when it doesn’t seem like we have any other choice,” Arden said. She wondered if he was right. She wondered if it was one more layer of her protecting herself to think she was better off without anyone.

  “How would you know?” she asked. “You’re surrounded with family and friends. Everyone wants to be with you.”

  “You should remember from those years you thought you had everything,” he began. “You can be surrounded by people, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t lonely.”

  His words stunned her. He smiled as he shook his head, and she was quiet as she waited for him to continue.

  “Don’t take that the wrong way. I have incredible parents, wonderful siblings, and I do love this community, but we all go through journeys, and times in our lives where we feel”—he paused, as if searching for the right words—“where we feel we aren’t good enough or where we compare ourselves to others and find that we come up short.”

  “You felt as if you weren’t good enough?” she asked, obviously stunned.

  “Hey, that shouldn’t be such a shock,” he said, flicking his finger under her chin and smiling.

  “But why would you ever think you’re not good enough?” she pushed.

  “Trust me, I’m confident in myself,” he told her before letting out a sigh. “But I grew up a middle child in a family of five siblings. I also decided from a young age I had a passion for teaching, which is far less heroic than becoming a doctor,” he told her with a laugh, “or a fireman . . .” He trailed off as he shrugged.

  “Do you think your siblings are better than you?” she asked.

  “No,” he told her quickly. “It’s not that at all. I’m just saying that all of us have moments of feeling . . . too ordinary.”

  Silence greeted those words before Keera smiled. She didn’t think he was playing her; she felt he was actually giving her a piece of his vulnerability, but she also had a difficult time imagining him ever feeling as if he was coming up wanting in any situation.

  “Well, you are kinda average,” she told him when the moment had become too personal.

  “I’ll show you average,” he warned, a sparkle entering his eyes.

  And just that quickly, he allowed her past to go back to where it belonged, and her worries faded as he jumped from the table, then proceeded to chase her through the park, allowing her to think she’d gotten away before swooping her up in his arms.

  Yes, she was in trouble when it came to Arden Forbes. She was in big, big trouble.

  Chapter Eighteen

  “There
’s activity at Keera’s apartment,” Declan said over the phone.

  “What sort of activity?” Arden asked as he grabbed his keys and called Max, who was already on his heels as he heard the tension in Arden’s voice.

  “The cops were called,” Declan told him.

  Arden was in his car and speeding down his driveway within seconds. He was more than grateful Keera didn’t live far from him. He’d been with her all day at school, and she’d insisted she was fine, that nothing out of the ordinary had happened in a while and she didn’t need to be coddled. He’d hated leaving her alone, but he had to respect her wishes.

  Besides, he was desperately trying to figure out what his feelings toward this woman were. He knew something was happening between them, and he also knew he was falling for her. But she had been guarded for a very long time, and he wasn’t sure he could get through to her, wasn’t sure she could open up to anyone after what she’d been through.

  He was fighting on whether to look up her story. She’d shared with him, and he felt immensely pleased that she’d opened up to him as much as she had, but he wanted her to give him more, to give it all to him.

  He didn’t know if she was capable of doing that. It was a real test of trust, and he needed to give her more time. But right now, all he cared about was getting to her, ensuring her safety. Then he could work on her trust more fully when someone wasn’t trying their best to destroy her.

  Maybe this was about her past, though, and he was being a fool to not find out all he could to ensure her safety. And even though Arden wasn’t checking into her past, he was more than sure Declan had. If there was something Arden needed to know to keep her safe, he was sure his brother would tell him.

  They got to the apartment building, where two cop cars were sitting, their lights off, their cabs empty. “Let’s get to Keera,” Arden told Max, who practically pulled Arden from the vehicle. The dog was just as worried about her as he was.